Hiii welcome here!!
I can relate to this a lot, so this is really exciting for me!
I consider myself a writer too, and I aspire to publish a number of books in my lifetime. I haven’t struggled much with writing smut per se (I’ve been able to get past that now, thankfully haha). However, I do struggle with something else in my writing that’s made me hesitate to continue. There’s something of a novel that I’ve been working on for a handful of years now. Fairly recently, I’ve kinda stopped all progress on it
This is for reasons similar to what you’re going through! It’s not exactly because I’m concerned about what’s written within it, but more so because of what isn’t.
For just a lil bit of context, I feel like God has given me a gift of communication. I’ve been passionate about words and language since I was young. Not only do I loooove to talk (lol) but I also thoroughly enjoy reading and have such a great appreciation for people expressing thoughts, emotions, ideas, experiences, etc. through written and spoken word. So naturally, I also love to write. It’s certainly one of the greatest forms of art to exist, and we have God to thank for it!
Now, this novel that I’ve had in the works for quite some time. During its first few days of existence, I made a point to remember to avoid mentioning religion in any way that I could throughout the whole story so that it could appeal and be relatable to as large an audience as possible. And so far, I’ve done just that—almost to a fault.
Any story would need to have some sort of conflict, right? The greater or more dramatic the conflict, the more interesting/entertaining the story has the potential to be. I feel like that’s pretty typically the case, at least. But in recent days, I’ve been realizing that something that’s really important to me is involving God in every aspect of my life. This means that, in any conflict that occurs in my real life, I make an effort to come to God about it first and foremost before doing literally anything. I believe we’re all called to have Christ as our firm foundation and to build our life around Him rather than on anything else, because otherwise we risk committing idolatry. We’re supposed to store our treasures in Heaven and not in the things of this Earth, no?
So anyway, when it comes to my lil novel, there is (obviously) a conflict that is the basis of the whole story lol. Now, I wouldn’t necessarily say that I’ve written anything that is sinful or that glorifies sin. That isn’t quite my concern with this particular work of mine. My problem is something that I’ll split into two chunks:
1)How can I utilize this gift God has given me to glorify His kingdom? This isn’t a huge deal, but I don’t really want to waste my time writing about random things that might be cool but, at their core, hold no real substance. Although they might not be sinful, they ultimately don’t matter. They’re not changing anyone’s life for the better or bringing anybody closer to God. They’re silly stories that are just for funsies. There’s nothing wrong with that, but I think God has made me so passionate about writing for a reason more significant than that. Why waste my talent on meaningless stories when I could write something that brings glory our Lord and Savior?
And finally, 2) As I mentioned before, I’ve started approaching real-life conflicts in a different way than I used to. I realize that, without putting God first in my thoughts and in my life, I start to idolize other things really easily. So, I’ve been trying to make my relationship with God the thing of most value in my life, because that’s what it is! One of the only downsides to this is that now, in my writing, I have a hard time separating what I do in real life from what I portray my characters to do. In almost every conflict that can happen in real life, making important choices without factoring in the Bible or consulting with God would most likely result in a sinful decision being made (or a decision that God wouldn’t have advised you to make/taking a step in a direction that God isn’t pushing you in, even if it isn’t directly sinful).
With this being the case, I’ve been trying to figure out how my characters would navigate the conflict in their story. I had some ideas before of what to do, but lately I’m second-guessing myself. I’m very near to the end of the book, but I’m considering scrapping the whole thing (keeping it around for memory’s sake, but never attempting to publish it). For the entirety of the story so far, I’ve managed to avoid mentioning anything related to any religion at all. My characters have simply been living their lives and reacting without bias (to the best of my ability lol) to the events happening to and around them.
But is that really all I want for this novel?
I’ve dedicated a lot of time and thought and energy into what this story is. It pains me to think that it could all be for naught and that it may never be finished or see a life on the bookshelves. However, I’m not sure how salvageable it is in its current state. Honestly, I can’t see a way to turn it around and make it into a tool to help glorify Christ without needing to change some pretty fundamental aspects of the plot, unfortunately. It’s gotten to the point where I’m wondering if the whole plot itself is even capable of being changed into something God-glorifying at all, just because of how completely random it is. Although I know that just because I don’t presently see a way to turn it around for the better doesn’t mean that it’s impossible. But that’s something I’ll have to figure out in its due time.
Back to YOUR situation! 


I just wanted to express how much I know what you’re going through. My advice would be to, like you said, maybe practice writing short stories or one-offs from a more family-friendly standpoint before beginning practice with romance stories that Christians are still in the clear to read. But I do certainly think it’s possible and that you can achieve it! Just look at Song of Solomon, the 22nd book of the Bible. If you haven’t read it already, I really suggest you do! I see it as perhaps the most biblical version of the romance genre that’s out there, come to think of it. So in my eyes, that’s a decent place to start and maybe break the stigma a little bit to help you feel more like romance is something that even Christians can read/write about and appreciate.
As for Christian-furry media, I recommend Chronicles of Narnia! I’m not sure how much of a romance aspect there is in that story as I’ve never read the books and it’s been a hot minute since I saw any of the movies
But I think it could be helpful for getting exposed to literature that has managed to become mainstream despite being Christian-oriented and furry-esque.
I’d love to read maybe an excerpt or something from what you’ve already got. It seems like such a fascinating story that I’d really enjoy once it (no doubt) becomes a full-fledged book! 
